Peace

Anyway, sch's been busy.
Busy, busy, busy.

I'm still quiet.
For some reasons, I can't get it off my mind.
Although I'm laughing in class, laughing outside,
I can't seem to get the silence to go.
I'm so, so, so confused.

I need time.
But I don't have the courage.
I need you.
But I don't dare tell you.
I miss you.
But it just won't come outta my mouth.
I love you, I really really do.
But I'm just that same old not-so-straight-forward fellow.

I resort to dumb methods like using weird numbers
Or, weird writings to tell you.

Surprisingly, you're still that smart fellow who knows me so well.

You wanted me to say out, why am i so quiet and upset over
But nothing would come outta me.

You chided me, saying "Don't laugh it off. You know you always use this method.
So why are you still using it? To me?"
All I could reply was, "Haha.. No la.."

You were pissed when i kept disturbing you while you were on the phone
I tried to pacify you, but you screamed "Shut up la!"
I kept quiet, looked down in guilt and within seconds, you hugged me
And honestly, it felt like before.
Then, you told me "I felt guilty ma.. In the past also wont right. Haha, now change already :)"
And you stroked my hair like before..

You hugged me and teared when I said i have to leave,
And I just couldn't bear..

I'll never get the courage.
Never.

Cause at the end of the day,
I know, very very well.
I don't wanna lose you.
I don't even wanna say goodbye.

But, for some reasons...
I can never find that courage to tell you.
Maybe it's because you're always swapped with suitors.
Maybe...
It's because I'm afraid.

I don't wanna be rejected..
I'm afraid.
Once bitten, twice shy.
I'm just a coward.
I admit that.

But at the end of the day,
All I wanna tell you is,
I love you

I will.
I will find the courage someday.
To tell you.

And when that day comes,
Whatever the outcome,
I'll accept.

After all, I just wanna let you.
That's all...

pao pao is sooooooooooooooooooo cute!