It's one of those days..

Whoever told you it's easy to keep yourself occupied?
Whoever said you could occupy yourself with games?
That's total bull.

I'm trying my best to get rid of everything.
I watch my HK drama every min now.
Even going to toilet is a chore.
Even eating meals are a chore.
Simply cause i ain't allowing myself a min to spare.
To be alone.

Quoting from Neeky's blog...

"Don't hug and kiss me then run away. I don't do drama"

Haha, coincidentally..
It was posted the very next day i knew of things.
Words can be said so easily, not unknowingly.
Unknowingly to people that it hurts.

Somethings can be so heartfelt,
While some can be so heart-piercing.
It wouldn't change nothing.

'Cause till now...
I solemnly believe in myself.
That you ain't what they say.

No. No way are you.
I'm just gonna keep what everyone else says,
To me, myself and I.

'Cause it don't matter if others dislike you.
It don't matter to me.
No matter.

It has never affected me once.

It'll stand.
It'll stay.
It don't matter.
Nothing else does.

Only you..

But why?
I feel like I'm put on a shelve.
In a shop called Toy 'R' Us.

In a small corner where it's not so eye-catching.
On that pathetic shelve that now, i feel pathetic too..

So pathetic, I even thought of what to write over the board hung on me.

"Promotional price! Hi, the name's johnny, and I'm free!
But here's the catch! Make me love you and I'm yours!"

Pathetic enough.
Haha. But here i am..
Back on that shelve that crumbled.
It's there again..

I'm waiting..
For you to take me home..
And not ditch me again this time.

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I'm Johnny. ;)

i'd rather you hurt me than you getting hurt by others