Look how the stars shine for you

My dearest you..

I took out my notebook today, for no apparent reason.
People always say i'm a extrovert because i'm loud,
but true friends know i'm actually a quiet person
who hides everything when need be.

Friends tell me, they know i tend to write whenever i'm down.
And true enough, i really will when i have to.

Being a mere perfectionist, i tear every single paper
i'm not satisfied with whatever i wrote on.

I've never doubted myself of having you kept in my mind all day.
Even the slightest things these days trigger my mind like a grenade.
And boom, you'll appear again, for the nth time, and stay there for long.

I sat in front of my com for 2 hours,
which felt like the longest time...
And started writing on my notebook.

I thought i was delusional when i saw your name everywhere,
thinking, oh, i'm just thinking about you.
When i snapped outta my staring-into-space moment,
i finally realised it was because my hand was scribbling your name.
Uncontrollably all over that particular page in my notebook.

Its no special page.
Just a normal page in my notebook.
But i have no idea, not a single clue why i did it.
While waiting for you, i thought alot..

Reality snapped, and here i am.
With this heavy heart...

I can never understand how could everything turn to this state
in just a mere 2 weeks time.

I guess i can only complain here,
keep quiet about it and never mention when anyone questions.
Not to mention, people in VE.

Then again, i guess you'll never read this.
Neither will anyone from VE read it...

Cause thats all you care about now...