no one can feel how each individual feels
despite yu telling that person
"i know, i've been through this"

but no.
yu cant feel exactly the same way
that particular individual feel.

everyone has their own way of venting their anger
venting whatever they feel now.
be it sad, angry, happy, vexed, etc.

haha.
i dont even know what the hell i'm saying
currently, right now, this moment.

much as i dont feel like talking
i'm still answering every single pm
every single sentence
every single sms.

much as i need to be alone
i'm still getting company

i try to act like nth happened
by talking bout sth else
and i guess yu pretty much could tell.

and i could tell yu were trying to too.

the fact that yu made the first move
made me felt like a god damn fucker

i feel like some bastard who just created a mess
and made yu clear it up.

i try to make it look as if i'm okay
but i guess yu aint either.

i guess this is just how it works
yu can never have what yu want
that easily.

but for my case?

i've never had anything i wanted.
this is the 2nd time alr

great.
and i really hate mondays

cause its always so bad
and so blue.

i had 2 big blows in one single day.
wow
amazing aint it?

haha.

okay.

bye.


i can hardly feel anything else

cause i'm so fucking numb


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i'm feeling so fucking emo now.
even my best friend's happy
yet i'm still god damn sad

i should be happy for her
yet i'm here probing over this
over that over everything

i just came back from a chat
with a good friend.

i just wanna hear this from yu.

do yu, or do yu not like her?

even if its just that lil bit
just tell me.

please.

cause i know yu do...
somehow
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