i could sit for hours
just listening to the same song
over and over

i could sit for hours
just looking at yur nick

i could sit for hours
staring at my phone
waiting for yur call or msg

i could sit and wait
all day long

wishing and wanting
something i want

but deep down inside
nothing ever happens

i would smile at every
single small and trivial things

but nothing works inside

try as i might
nothing seems to be right

even the happiest song
playing in my playlist

sounds sad

i could just stare into
nothing
thinking bout nothing

for hours days
weeks months

yet nothing seems to be
changing at all

i'd rather hear it from yu
then others






























but yu rather not say...




























-edited-
i'm not given much of a choice am i?
dont apologise...

there's no right or wrong in this
if there is, its mine.

i shouldnt have started all this
i should have never started any of this

now i see it crumbling
and all i can do is watch and feel

feel this fucking pain
in the inside of me

yet i still have to smile
and laugh at everyone.

and nothing gets better
not ONE SINGLE BIT.

WHY?

i question myself
and i search for the answer within me

and..

since the 2351309174th hour ago
till now
i still aint getting no answer.

it just doesnt get
ANY BETTER.

much as i dont want to
i dont even have a choice

and..

i feel like dying.

so, EVERYONE OUT THERE.

do yu hate me?
dislike me?
even if its just that LITTLE bit?

or do yu wanna vent yur anger
but yu cant find a better way!?

here's yur chance!!

i'm going out FREE OF CHARGE

for yu to beat me in ANYWAY yu like.

just give me a holla, and i'll let yu
BEAT THE CRAP OUTTA ME.

sounds nice??

pick up yur phone now!
-edited-



bye



i dont want

i really dont