Ten years down the road...

Day 273



Ten years.

on 1st of jan, 1994,
i, camilia, joined mahabodhi primary sch.
i remember clearly i was in class 1J.
afternoon class.

then, i knew someone like minhui.
and we became good friends since then.

then i raised to primary 2.

one day, this quite good looking man, came into my class when we were having lessons halfway.
i thought to myself, "eh, what he wants?"
then he asked my class, "anyone wants to join the band?"
"come over and write down yur name!"

i thought, "huh. eh join join la. for fun"
so minhui and i joined the band.
honestly k, i was dumb in the past.
at first i heard as BANK.
well, its pronounced almost the same what
and mind yu, i was ONLY primary 2 okay.

then we went for out first practice!
there, i saw alot alot of small kids.
haha my age of course.
there were soooo many of us!
minhui, myself, stefanie, kaimin, mark tan, etc.
(i'm sorry i could only remember these few...)

THEN kaimin and stef came and introduce themselves.
i always remember what they said when i was in p5/6.
they said in the beginning, they only dare to talk to minhui
cause they find me very "dao" and unfriendly.
thats not true!
i just dont talk to strangers.
dont yur mama teach yu??? lol.

okay anyway, then at p3
all of us went to the main band.
and i got to know the seniors!
people like, mosquito, xiuwen, huiling, li qin, li xian, ah mong's elder sister, peiqin, minli, siew peng, jieyuan, felix, benny, clement, li lin, yong lin etc.
basically all the old old seniors.
and! i got juniors of my own!

haha. siah mong's one of them
then there's eileen, ariel, amelia, sijia, sharon and of course, JOCEYLN and alot more.
then, i got to know them and of course, we became friends.

then, there were competitions.
we got gold!
do yu know how delighted i was?
at a age of 10, i was part of a gold medal.
then many other competitions came by and we still maintained at gold!

this, of course, isnt achieved by me alone.
its by all the hardwork everyone put in.
honestly, i dont think i contributed much.
i was never a good clarinetist.
not to mention a musician.

i cant even play some notes
i cant run , i cant even read some notes!
i think i was a bad one.
but i kept putting a strong front.
i was one who cant LOSE.
i admit.

anyway, continue.
then, i graduated.
i remember other than my friends in class or in other classes,
i missed my band the most.
though, i went back frequently thereafter.
okay so i dont remember seeing any of my juniors...

then! at sec 4, there were news of us going to record a cd.
but there wasnt much info thereafter.
so in the beginning, i didnt think much into it.

then, after my o's, the news came.
we were to go back to sch and attend some briefing along with a practice.
that was when i saw them again.
i saw, minhui, fabian, kaimin, stefanie and alot more.
so many unfamiliar faces, old faces and new faces.

faces of juniors i've never in my whole life saw before
faces of juniors i've once pinched but seem so far away
faces of juniors who NEVER changed at all
and faces of those i once loved.

faces of seniors who look the same
faces of seniors who look old
faces of seniors who i totally dont regconise.

faces of teachers i love.

few months past and we all sat down in halls,
classrooms, by the corridor, band room, buddhist hall
all practicing note by note, phase by phase

there were sectionals we totally sat far apart at
full practices we only talked to people we were with

then, as the time came closer,
we were closer to the recording.
on the last practice and so,
everyone started to get close with one another.
seniors and juniors started talking
everyone started to bother to mingle around.

then on the day of the recording.
the first day, everyone was still not talking much
it was till the second day.
i even initiated to ask for numbers from people around me.

it was a very shocking action
cause i dont normally mingle around that much
i have to admit this.
then, we took photos.
i felt sad on that day but it was nothing cause i thought to myself,
"there'd be a bbq and there's a launch! so there's nothing to be sad"
so, a week later, we had our bbq.

more friends were made
and more bonds were bonded.
closer than ever.

i started to contact alot more after the bbq
it was dumb but it was one hell of a good thing to do.
at least, now we talk.

then, practice before the launch.
we all met.
like finally.
and everyone looked pretty much the same!
as noisy, as quiet, some as cold, as good looking, as funny, as hilarious, as ever!

and finally, the launch.
i dont know why the hell it ended so abruptly.
i was honestly expecting to cry yu know.
but okay people left without much of a proper farewell and all
then not much photos were taken
no outing was organised to hang out after it
and no one said any touching stuff.

i really wanted to cry on that day!
but okay, so i didnt.
and now, i'm reminiscing on everything and i'm getting all teary.

i have to admit,
i'm not anyone friendly.
i dont smile to people when i see them as a form of greeting
i dont talk much to people i dont really talk to
i dont act as myself when in front of people i dont really like or something in the past
but when i think through, it was all the past.
i should just be nice and friendly.

HAIYA.
what the hell am i saying -.-

i just dont want all this to end!!! sigh.
i think people who say, "we'll meeT! we will! dont get so upset"
a pack of lies.
come on, who doesnt know yu'll be busy going out with someone else and all
or yu'll just forget bout this whole thing!?

just last year,
i remember telling kaimin,
"whoa, dont know when will this end hoh, hope we'll all be friends man."
and today, i'm sitting all alone in my room
typing all this, reminiscing on the times in band
thinking bout everyone,
listening to the songs,
thinking back.

good things does come to an end.
but this is way too fast..

so, people, never will i ever forget any of yu.
especially people in mbs band.
10 years.

10 years of glory
10 years of memories
10 years of music sharing
10 years of growing up.

we'll all be those mbs kids we were once.

so, mbs band mates, never shall yur names be erased
from my memory, mind, heart, phone, whatever.

never...

for this 10 years, are the best...