I love yu.

Day 233


我爱你

从你眼睛看着自己 最幸福的倒影
握在手心的默契 是明天的指引
无论是远近什么世纪 在天堂拥抱
或荒野流离
我爱你 我敢去
未知的任何命运
我爱你 我愿意
准你来跋扈地决定 世界边境
偶尔我真的不懂你 又有谁真懂自己
往往两个人多亲密 是透过伤害来证明
像焦虑不安我就任性 怕泄漏你怕
所以你生气
我爱你 让我听
你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你 我想亲
你倔强到极限的心
我撑起所有爱 围成风雨的禁地
挡狂风豪雨 想让你喘口气
被割破的信心 需要时间痊愈
梦想缠着怀疑 未来看不清 就
紧紧的拥抱 去传[递]能量和勇气
我爱你
我爱你 我想去
未知的任何命运
我爱你 让我听
你的疲惫和恐惧
我爱你 我想亲
你倔强到极限的心
(哪里都一起去 一起仰望星星
一起走出森林 一起品尝回忆
一起误会妒忌 一起雨过天晴
一起更懂自己 一起找到意义)
我爱你
我不要没有你
我不能没有你 绝不能没有你


XXX,

i love yu

i really do

i've never once stopped loving yu

even in my dreams, all i see is yu

all these while, never once i've fallen asleep without thinking of yu

everytime someone mentions yur name, my heart skips a beat

everytime yu touch me, i blush unknowingly

everytime yu call out my name, i'll smile inside my heart

everytime i see yu, i cant help but smile to myself inside

everytime yu sit right next to me, i get the jitters

everytime yu look at me, i feel as though i'm the happiest person cause i caught yur attention

whenever i receive a msg from yu, i smile to my phone

whenever i pick up a call from yu, i'll stammer so hard i cant even make out what i'm saying

any gesture, any smile, any word, any msg, any call, anything at all

makes me happy cause its all from yu

looking at all the past msgs yu've sent, it makes me think of that present day

no matter what sms yu've sent

i've kept 286 msgs yu sent since day 1

the number's supposed to be more but i accidently deleted my inbox and i slapped myself so hard i wanted to cry

every single sweet thing yu've once said to me, be it being jokingly or seriously, i take it seriously

but..

that was all in the past

yu dont call, sms, pm (msn) me no more

yu dont tell me anything serious no more

yu dont joke with me no more

yu dont look straight into my eyes no more

yu dont tell me nice things anymore

yu only make my heart bleed now

yu dont make me smile inside no more

yu still make my heart skip a beat

yu still make me blush

yu still make me feel like i've choosen the right person

but

yu aint corresponding no more

yu aint make me feel like yu feel the same no more

yu make me feel like i'm gonna lose yu to someone else

yu make my tear ducts so dry i cant smile no more

yu make me lose my appetite

yu make deprive me of my sleep just to make me think of yu

i regret all my actions in the past

i regret all my wrongdoings

i admit i'm at fault

i've never wanted to give yu up

i've never wanted to forget bout yu

i've never wanted to lose all our memories be it good or bad

not once

never

but now,

we're losing each other

or rather, i'm losing yu

it hurts me so much i cant stop crying

so much so i cried till my tear ducts are all dried up

i can no longer find anymore tears to cry...

my determination sucks

i tell myself to give yu up

but i totally cant

thats cause i love yu

i really really do

i'm saying all this not to make yu feel guilty

i just wanna tell yu what i want yet unable to

i guess i can never do so...



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sorry to let yu guys read such an emotional-ised post.
i needa let it off.
i'm tired.
i've got no mood to eat, sleep, think.
i can only stare into nothing.
i'm forced to put up a smile, a fake me.
i'm tired...
really tired...


anyway, i've got myself tanned.
i guess thats all bout today?



ciao people.




P.S

Darling, take care of yurself k.
Study hard. I know yu'll do well. =)
Love yu.



Quote of the day,

"
Its not about how i see yu,
its about how yu see me.

Its not about how much i love yu,

its about how much yu love me.

"


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