down the pits.

Day 208




i'm losing the ability to communicate
with everyone.
i wonder why.


i guess its true when people says we're easily affected.
yeah. hell yeah we do.
everyone around me is down.


my dearest min is down too.
oh man.


i think my heart skipped a beat
stopped for awhile before it continued beating
i held my breathe and tried hearing
heard nothing but the still air
nothing but the loud tv outside


i opened my msn and looked throught the list of people online and their nicks.
then, i saw this someone's personal msg.
this particular someone..
its something bout cancer.


i thought for awhile..
and i was thinking, what if its that person who contracted it.
i felt tis twitch.
deep deep down in my heart.
but soon, that person changed that msg.
so i guess, it aint that person anyways..


okay. today, that temp girl said i look like some jap actor.
ACTOR.
which means, its a male.
zzz
i really really feel like giving her one tight slap.
but, yeah, like whatever.


okay. i shall end here.



ciao




to lose the ability to communicate is like losing a arm.
to lose the ability to communicate is like eating rice with nothing else

what am i to do?
i cant seem to communicate well..
why do i have this.. no-one-wants-to-talk feeling?
damn. i'm paranoid...
why do i tend to think so much?


i'm losing all my abilities.