Sick of everything

Day 179



I am in sucha bad mood today.
And dom had to add more oil to my fire.
I was SO pissed.


I am so sick of this life of mine. It simply sucks to a LARGE extent.
I am so sick of trying and trying to make it better.
I am so sick of not saying nothing when i feel something.
The freaking feeling SUCKS.


Yeah, and i'm always thinking.
Its all my thinking.
I admit i think too much.
But think again, no one's in my shoes.
NOBODY.
Like what the hell does everyone know


When i freaking try to get serious, everyone jokes.
When i try to make peace, i get sulky and grumpy faces.
When i make my way out to enjoy, i get disagreements here and there.


Shyt this life.
What the hell is freaking wrong.
Smack me in the freaking face and freaking LEAVE ME ALONE.


I am god damn sick of this futile wait for the day that will NEVER come.
I am sick of trying to wait for that freaking day.
I am sick of TRYING.
I am sick of getting upset over whatever yu say/type.


I AM FREAKING SICK OF EVERYTHING.


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Amelia's sucha different person from what i use to think she is.
Kinda surprised though.
Not trying to imply that she's totally 360 degrees from how i thought she was..
Well.. yeah she is.
I dont know. Totally different?
Maybe cause of some incident during my sec 2 year.


Ahh, i dont know.
Oh.. She's kinda close with XXX.
I dont bitch bout people.
Yes. I dont.
Anyway, she's one thick-skinned chap.
And always acting shy.
*tsk tsk tsk*
Not admiting, she cares, not admiting she misses me.
Whats there to deny when its the fact !?


Err... =x
Okay, next time i'll call yu at 2-3am to say good night a'ight!?
Haha.
Yes. Okay, yu are cute.
Oh, did i mention?
She's one hell of a er.... Letter queen. =x
Just letter. I didnt state what kind.
So, dont kill me yeah?


Oh, such a singapore lover.
What else.
Um. Oh.
Yes. I must mention this.
She types, blogs, sms-es like a matured girl.
But... After yu hear her voice. Ahh..
Its a totally different story.
Like.. Some kid talking to yu.
Heh.


Okay, i'm gonna publish a autobio for her if i continue.
So, that's it.



Peace. (which i think its useless)



Ciao