Shyt, i'm damn useless

Day 158



Sorry for not blogging for the past few days. Havent got the time to come online. I got work everyday. There's overtime too. Cause i'm aiming to hit 1k! Dom and i were calculating our pay and minusing the CPF cut-off (god damn it. i thought under 18 dont get no CPF cut-off!?) i'd get like, 700 + if i work normally and with ot, i might get higher!!
So, i've gotta start saving up already.


Okay, i've got lots to blog. I dont know where to start from. Sigh.
It seems everyone around me, are not good. In a sense, they're in bad, bad shape.
Fabian, Sherry, Yvonne, etc.
3 may not seem alot to yu, but it's alot to me. I dont even know whats wrong and stuff. And, i feel so useless and moronic. I only know that they're troubled today. I have an explaination here. I'm like, working everyday and the only times i get to go online are during my free time. Which is given by dom.
And that's like, only 10 mins? I cant do much with it..


I'd like to say sorry. I'm really sorry. I feel like a total dork now. I think i'm the dumbest thing around the whole world. I should've seen yur blogs earlier on.
Damn it.
I know, y'all probably think, what the hell. What the hell am i apologising for?
Well, i can tell yu this. Everyone i know is important to me.
No one is a tom, dick or harry to me.
Okay, so i admit there're some different levels of how much i care for yu people out there, but does it even matter?
I just want everyone to be happy. I may not know what happened. I dont wanna know either. I dont wanna just be someone else out there who says, "hey, whats wrong? Ya a'ight?" or, "cheer up yeah? Dont be sad."


Fuck those words. I've been through this. I'm hating such phrases too. But, so ? Its a form of care aint it?
Everyone uses it umpteen times but do they really mean it?
I dont know man. I really dont. I dont wanna know either. I think that'll kinda hurt.


I wanna post another entry. Its for people, they themselves know who they are.



ciao