Penny for yur thought

Day 151



I'd like to apologise.. To everyone who read yesterday's entry.
It was harsh.
Yes. I admit it.
And, i'm very sorry. Really sorry to all. I was really in a bad mood yesterday. I didnt even wanna blog. But.. I did. So, yeah.
Nothing special here. I just wanna apologise.


Then, of course, there will be the thank yu part too.
As usual, i wont say their names.
But, really a very big thank yu.
I'm not someone who's very good with words and i believe a simple thank yu isnt enough for it all. But, really, thanks.


I've been thinking, what exactly does a blog serve purpose of? I've been wondering.
I mean, come on. Yu guys know me. I'm a very lazy and any-o-how fellow. I dont design my blog nicely, everything in my blog yu see, is taught to me by a good friend. I dont even know how to post a picture. Even the song, is hosted by that friend of mine.
I seriously think i'm a total idiot. In everything i do. Basically everything that has happened in my life, is well-planned. Of course, let's rub away those falling downs, clumsy times, mischevious portions. Then, there's the friends part. I dont even know what i'm doing everyday.


See? I dont even know what the hell am i blogging.


We mix with one group of people for a certain time, and we drift. Then, we'll find another bunch of people, and we drift again. The same old routine repeats and repeats dont yu think so?
I feel so god damn empty. That darn feeling is coming back. We go through experiences that make us all feel that when the day ends, what have we gained? What have we actually done today? Who did i hurt? Have i brought any laughters to anyone?
We are always trying to escape from reality whenever we can, even though we know we still have to face the music in due time, arent we? I wont dare say for yu guys but i know i do.
Have yu ever thought, maybe one day, we should just let everything go, let all those things yu were dwelling on for the past few secs/mins/hours/days/weeks/months/years/ or even, decades? I'm not exaggerating. I'm being serious.
I have people telling me that they're still thinking of their kindergarden girlfriend or something. Dont laugh. It aint funny.
Thats like, decades ago aint it? Ever wonder of that? Letting go of everything.
I honestly think that'll be cool. At least, to me.


Was blog hopping around everyones' i know. Just like what min said, its amazing aint it?
How some people can use simple words to simply express how they feel for that day.
And there are those who blog about practically EVERYTHING that happened that day, like what they did when they woke up or during their lesson break, what they ate. Then, there are those who can never stop preaching and preaching bout how much they love god. And that they wanna thank lord for everything they have.
Or how 'bout those using boombastic words to blog 'bout their everyday life.
I just find it so amazing.


I mean, last time i use to blog so much, people often complain i'm blogging so much as though i'm writing a novel or something. Now that i've shorten most of my posts, people complain too. Zzz. Okay, so for today's entry, i blogged a hell loada stuff.


Honestly, i dont know if i'm a attention seeker. Am i?
Maybe i am.
But i definitely do need attention from people. Of course, nice attention not other kinda attention yeah.
Damn. I'm preaching too.


Well, whatever. Cant be bothered either. I do hope we can all turn back to primary sch times. At least at that period of time, i was carefree living my own life, spending money like nobody's business, there wasnt any backstabbing, no betrayals, no bitches (okay, so there is. One or two.), no troubles. Everyday was a happy, laughing day. Yeah, we were childish once. But if yu were to think it through, sometimes, some naiveness and childishness is actually a great thing to enjoy.


Thats about it i guess.



Peace y'all.



Bye