I'm so useless

Day 121




This aint a post yu'll enjoy reading, so, yu still have a chance to close this window before yu feel real irritated at what i'm posting.



okay. i feel, so stupid. so useless.

People that bother telling yu they are sad, is it because they want yu to console them, to comfort them to lend them yur shoulder when they need one or to just complain?

I always try to help..

I always try to console them and talk to them that it aint their fault even though i know it's not gonna help..

i always lend a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, a helping hand..

but has it ever occured that, when i'm really entirely, extremely sad, and i dont tell anyone, yu dont even bother asking?

i dare not say i've been a very very good friend, but at least, i've given all i have and all i can do for yu.. for all my friends out there.

Why is it that some of yu just dont understand what i'm doing and yu just dont bother about me?

Why is it that some of yu just walk away and leave me dying there?

Why do people forget about another?

Why do people ignore one another?

why is it that, when i'm trying my very best, yu cant see anything and continue being what yu were?

I do have limitations. i do have a temper.

I just dont wanna show 'em till anything crossed that limit.

many a times, i just wish yu'll just show yur concern even through a simple good night msg or, "hey, how're yu?" but, i'll always have to take the initiative.

I understand people do change. i understand under diff. environments and schs, we drift apart.

but why now?

I often wonder, maybe i should do the same.

but i cant.

Sigh. this is, indeed a fucked up world.

I can never succeed in consoling people.

for example, we may haven known for years but i have a new haircut, does everyone know? has everyone seen it yet?

Not all..

Its seriously not because of a pic.

Sigh..



Oh whatever. just let me complain for one post. i'm feeling like shyt now. yeah. so, bye people.