Day 56





okay, blogger really suck. i blogged yesterday afternoon la, then it didnt went through! zzz. now i have to think of what to write. Sigh~



i'm feeling sad. Jasmine got a school to go ler. Haiz.. i still haven. Tp accepted her. i wonder which sch will accept me. Haiz. i'm feeling so useless and unwanted. sigh~ i think worse come to worse go Shatec study cooking ba~ if not jiu really go U.S.A or australia ler. haha. sherry wants me in New Zealand if i'm not studying in Sg. lol. i think if wifey sees this, she's gonna get mad. haha.



oh! wifey told me the other day, that the press caught hebe with a bung. -.- Erm. okay. they said that she's a les la. but apparently, they're lying. oh well, who trusts the press these days!? =x liars. even the rumours with the other 2 having boyfriends are fake la! i trust my Selina wont betray me. ehhh. =x lol~ hmm. wait. no. i trust the 3 of them wont bear to betray me la. nah nah nah~~ they wont~ never in this lifetime! bleah. lol~~ oh. today's chinese newspapers got em. kinda funny eh. the press said that the bung was fiddling with hebe's bra buckle (yes, and is that counted as a intimate action? i always do that to people lei! =x) and apparently, she wasnt even wearing a bra that day! LOL! haha i laughed like mad when i was waiting for the bus while reading la. then lay koon kept asking me what happened. lol~ anyway, paparazzis are liars. Great big liars. NEH~



i find myself so kiasu. lol. i started planning on something thats coming up this month, no correction, the end of this month since last month's 28th! haha. i've been asking people for opinions la, for places to choose and stuff la. and the response i get is, "when's the thingy? huh!? end of the month? .. yu're so kiasu lei." lol~ aiya whats wrong with being kiasu !? wait last min something happen how? i dont wanna kalang kabo la~ =p haha i cant really say whats the thing coming up la. wait spoil my plans! i shall blog on that day. hehe



today's my smallest cousin's full month lunch. its normally at night la, i dont know why my uncle held it in the afternoon. anyway, i'm evil la. but i have to say this. my aunt look the same to me just as she was pregnant! =x really! and her boobs.. wow! so... er. well. ahem. okay. haha yu people should know la ~ lol~ weilin and i were discussing bout her when we were drinking our red wine and standing at the entrance. lol her jacket looked as though it was about to burst. okay, i'm mean. but whoa lau, i think everyone in the Fong (my mum's side de surname) family's like talking bout her lo. just that no one dares to admit! lol~ haha so mean right. lol. oh bth myself. lol



haiz. these few days ah, been thinking bout something or maybe.. someone? =x aiya. i dont know lei. guess that person will never read my blog also la. i think that person doesnt even know i own a blog okay. zzz haiz. and i dont even know that person's. argh. okay. everyone has his/her part of fault to play in this mistake we're living in. i know i do have a fault.. sigh. Dont know la. but i really hope there's some light of hope~! *sob* haiz feeling kinda sad. every night around 12 plus ah, whoa i get damn down la. then.. zzz dont even wanna talk to anyone. haiz.. let's hope ba. thing's will change.. *prays~~*



aye. i wanted to help out a friend's friendship. but i dont know if i actually backfired the situation. die la. feeling so bad. then i darent approach her and ask how's the situation. haiz. i just wanna do a public apology. Sorry~~ yu know who yu are la. i'm sorry. i dont know it'll backfire or will it succeed but i just hate seeing people sad or being in bad mood. so, i tried talking to the other party la. i really dont know it'll backfire. i'm really sorry. i dont even know if yu're angry or what.. sigh. sorry man. really. very sorry..



i'm still quite upset over the incident at the lunch. what one of my cousin said la. haiz. making me feel so sad and useless all over again. zzz haiz. oh well. its over la. dont know la.. one thing piling up on another making me feel so sian. zzz haiz. k la i'm ending here. bye ~