Day 35





I'm so tired now. I didnt sleep much last night. I cant stop thinking of something. I know i'm the one at fault. Sigh. Sometimes, i really wonder. Why am i so stupid. I always tend to regret my stupid actions only after i wake up my stupid idea. I seriously think i'm stupid. I'm forever so stupid. I cant get anything right. I cant do anything right. I cant seem to keep anything in perfect condition. I always cock things up or i'll never do it properly.


Why am i so stupid? Why cant everything just go on smoothly? Haiz. Piang. Sometimes i really wish i wasnt born in this world. i feel like so crap now. i feel like shit. i feel like closing the door, and jump off the god damn window. i dont feel like going out. i dont feel like seeing anyone. i dont feel like doing anything!!! Haiz.. This sucks. everything sucks. i hate me. I really do. Sigh.. This is so god damn terrible. I'm feeling like a total asshole now.


Everyone's so near yet so far. Everyone are like strangers to me. I dont know myself no more.. i dont know whats going on anymore..


i just wanna apologise. To someone. i'm really sorry.. i know nothing i say will be of any help. but i just wanna apologise. dont say yu dont blame me for anything.. i.. dont know anything anymore. Haiz.. i only wanna say i'm sorry.. okay.


Bye.