Day 2







Sigh. Thanks deborah. For tagging that in my tag board. Haiz.. I'm still feeling very very sad even after she's left for a day.. I received her msg in the afternoon while working. Haiz.. I was touched and .. sad. I dont know how to explain, but i'm really sad. its like.. there's a thorn in my heart. Sigh... =( someone, slap me can. Haiz... work was very busy today. tmw's the starting of the meeting ler. I'll be at suntec.. From wednesday onwards, i'll have to wake up at 6 and go down to suntec by 6.30.. haiz. i guess that wont be a prob cause i guess every night will be just like last night.. I didnt even sleep. I was crying all night... i only feel asleep at 4.40am and i was awaken by the motorbike downstairs at 6.40am. Haiz.. sorry man. the entries i'm gonna blog for the next few days would be all about how sad i am. Haiz.. i'm really feeling very very down. I cant stop crying.. i cant stop thinking of sherry.. haiz. i regret.. i really regret. Not cherishing her when she's around and i only know how to complain bout her when she was here.. i really regret.. i feel like a total loser. i feel like a whiner. i feel so lousy. i feel like shit.. haiz.. how i wish there'll be a shoulder for me .. to cry on. Be it guy, or girl. Just lend me a shoulder.. haiz.. can anyone hear the pain in me ? i think i'm seriously dying soon.. i'm damn sick. my throat is very pain, i'm crying until i'm dehydrating.. haiz.. i can cry until there's no tears but i'm still crying..


Just now, i realised something. i dont know why it affected me so much.. but, its really sad to know that when yu're arguing with one friend.. that person still can msg someone else and joke around when she left me crying to another friend bout what happened.. i feel so hurt.. haiz. Xiang bu tong.. haiz..


Lastly, i'm really sad.. i still cant believe that sherry's gone. haiz. i really miss her alot.. people might tell me we still can keep in contact through e-mail, phone, letter, sms blah. but the feeling is different.. now i finally understand.. People will only learn to cherish certain things and people after they've lost them. i finally fully understand this. haiz... i just cant stop crying. haiz.. k la. i shall go .. bye..