Ah. realised it's been a long time since i've blogged. but, i have my reasons. First, i dont wanna blog down any unhappy stuff ler. But i realised that its hard. Cause my everyday life is so miserable. Second, my bro switched on the stupid password again, and now i cant come in as and when i like. Third, i dont feel like.


Okay, anyway. Wednesday, something happened to me. i dont know how to explain la. but i didnt sleep until 5 am plus that day. okay, ahem. i say ler, please do not tag and say this and that la. I cried the whole day. i started right in front of the com at 11 plus all the way till 2am and throughout, i was talkin to benjamin. then, i continued at 3 all the way to 4am plus then i talked to another person then i went to bed. yu can say i didnt even sleep. Cause i woke up at 9 and i didnt sleep after that. Sigh. Sad day. Alot of things happened. And they were way too quick for me to handle them.. Yu could say i've kept them to myselves ba. Till wed. I just couldnt erm.. Ya yi myself. Then.... burst into tears lo. Aiyo. i feel so useless man. i've been feeling very very tired since that very day. I think its due to lack of sleep. Lei ji qi lai, then very tired. AHHH!!! i feel so ... empty! so ... compressed! [sorry, i'm going bonkers.] aiya. dont know la. haiz ~~ i'm feeling so sad.


ah. anyway.... i've told laopo what happened. but~~ half of it. and, honestly, she said something when i went over to find her at paya lebar yesterday. well, its all because i said i was very dulan with someone then she want me to say lo. normally i dont say one la. but yesterday she said one sentence. then i was thinking.. whether or not to say. well, i made her quite angry la then she said this, " yu know hoh, yu're the only one right, i've never been fierce to before lo. then yu always say i fierce." Cause she was like saying, "i give yu one last chance ah, tell me." then like, so fierce what. anyway, i said back, "then yu know, i treat everyone the same, equally good but i never treat them as good as how i treat yu lo. then.." then i never continue la. wanted to say something more. but didnt.. oh well. haiz~ sometimes, somethings can only be kept inside. ahh. i know she'll read this for sure but i hope after we've settled the thing up there. lol. =x


oh well, read quite a no. of people's blog. seems like alot of people are sad too. Sigh~ no choice. this is life lei. gotta accept fate. okay i'm talking rubbish. Ah! i saw this pair of nike shoes i REALLY love! so nice and expensive -.- but i'm still gonne buy anyway~ dont care. haha. looking at the calendar, i realised alot of people's birthday are coming in the next coming month man. gotta save up. and, alot of them are on new year. speaking of new year.. i have yet to buy my clothes. oh well, what a way to start a year. Zzz haiz. k la ~ bye guys.


anyway... i thought over some stuffs ler. teresa, i've decided to let nature take its course. somethings, gai fang shou jiu de fang.